Dream

This next poem i though of after a great dream i had the other night. You know when you have those dreams and they seem so real? It just seemed to end too soon..... Let me know what you think.


"Dream"

So soft...unrelenting
So warm and so near
You heart beating softly
Is all i could hear

I held you..said nothing
But silence is gold
Ill hold you forever
And let the story unfold

You whispered so softly
You asked if i could
You asked if i wanted
And i thought we should

Id pack all my thing
In my backpack and car
We would leave this place
And go some place far

A ticket to nowhere
No passport to show
The road our companion
To watch us as we grow

I struggle to keep it
This time with you
I want it, I need it
But i wake up too soon

I know its not over
In my dreams we will meet
I toss and i turn
And go back to sleep

-alex-

I will disappear in to the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog's money, my dog's time--everything. If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word) , I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will project upon you all sorts of good qualities and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else.
I do not relay these facts about myself with pride, but this is how I have always been.

-Taken from Nikki's facebook :)

I only have 17 days.
I really need to starting hanging out with some of my real friends more than i have, because i probably wont be able to see them for a while. And i havent been doing a good job of hanging out much...i apologize. Im excited for this summer though....im really looking forward to it. I mean this semester was ok, but just ok. Theres been better ones in the past.
Im ready to move from the past move forward.
This week im spending time applying for jobs and things for the fall (in case some other things dont pan out). I havent really applied for any positions, but sent a resume to one company already in San Juan, so well see how that goes.

Everybody should come to the party the 2nd and enjoy. Its one last time to see everyone before we all go our seperate ways. It should be fun though and im looking forward to seeing everyone out.

I wrote you a poem

But I threw it away

I couldn’t decide

On what I wanted to say

I thought itd be easy

To just pick up my pen

And write out a poem

But I was wrong then

I cursed and I yelled

Could it be this hard?

Next time I figured

Ill just buy you a card

I wrote you a poem

Couldn’t think of a line

But ill write you a new one

With emotion this time

Brown haired girl

Brown haired girl

Insightful, Intriguing

Delightful, daydreaming

I wish you could stay

A little longer I pray

It seems like I just met you

The other day

We talk and we fight

About nothing it seems like

But try as I might

I can’t forget the good times

The rappers they see it

And now I believe it

That twinkle in your eye

Caught me by surprise

Remember that time?

At Mollys that night

The popcorn did fly

That my mouth would deny

Brown haired girl

So curious about me

But still you wont ask me

why im not so happy

Maybe some….day

So beautiful, so nice

You should visit here twice!

Three times if you’d like

Just once wont suffice!

Im glad I met you

I say it this time

But ill mean it forever

That’s why I wrote you this rhyme

I hop on a plane

Dare I look back?

This feeling is strange

Regrets’ what I lack

To start my part two

This story will last

With a new pair of shoes

And a blue Nike hat

I had a good time

Here in this place

But ive got to do mine

This goal that i chase

Forget me not

I wont forget you

Someday ill be back

And I hope you will too

I raise my glass
Cuz this time will pass
Everything we knew will too
Stop wasting time

And say what’s on my mind
How much she means to you
Have I lost my mind? Should I think twice?
Theres one thing id rather do
I whisper softly from my heart
“Ive saved the last kiss for you”

And I don’t know how to go on
When things are not the same
Continue leaning to the past
And the moment that she came

So I raise my glass
This time will pass
But I wont forget your face
Looking back ill realize
God I loved this place

poem 2

I thought i would write this
Its all kinda new
To think I had known you
But that wasn’t true

I wish you were someone else
That’s no lie
And now I don’t care
To let the time fly by

Soon you will go
And ill do the same
Well live our own lives
Survive our own way

And now I say bye
Forget that we met
Start things all over
And start to regret

-alex-

poem

Reset
If i had a reset button
and i could start things new
Id turn back to that time
that i first met you

So familiar, So common..
I remember this place
And there you were sitting
with a smile on your face

I thought what to say
How i smell, Hows my breath
If you saw me youd notice
Im scared half to death

Relax, keep it cool
Was all i could say
Anything to help me
From acting this way

When i talked..I trembled
What could i do
It didnt seem real
Talking to you

I left feeling worried
That i wasnt "me"
Behind my own curtain
Was the guy i hope youd see

If i had a reset button
Id know what to do
Id go back and whisper
How much ive missed you

-alex-

Im glad i wrote this...
Y tu creia que tu sabias de mi... ;)